About Last Night
By Scott Hedtke
Last night I saw you a little more clearly than usual, as if the wool over my eyes was pushed aside. Like trying to learn a foreign language in a class room then traveling to that particular country and understanding or trying to understand all of the peculiarities of dialect at light speed. Imagine trying to teach the principles of physics and the laws of motion to a child just learning to talk and you can come close to how I felt. A child sees everything in black and white, so adding a little gray area is confusing enough, let alone an ocean’s worth. Every time you think you’ve figured out life, the next pitch is a curve that you catch with your face. Now I need to learn new tricks in order to stay equal, not ahead. God grant me some wisdom or at very least patience and help me to learn how to take care of myself (God make me selfish) in order to shrug off the mantle of the eternal servant. I can think for myself, now I need to act for myself. I believe that the challenge of life is not to win but to understand the rules of the game in order to survive. The better you understand the rules the better you survive, and before long begin to thrive. But be careful because the rules can change faster than light travels and therefore you must stay on your toes, be on your guard. But there is a glitch in this seemingly silver lining. The more you’re on your guard, the more people you scare away. I’d much rather survive than thrive if thriving is to scare away the one I love. Almost like walking across a tightrope spanning the Grand Canyon, the long way. From end to end, the tightrope can get to the size of many feet or shrink to the size of a single thread. And we are all walking different ropes, so offering advice to someone unsteady might not help. But we do have limited control over our lives. If we are lucky we can make our strings intertwine with that of another. Maybe I’ve been no help to anybody. But if I have you’re welcome, glad I could help.